Monday, April 10, 2006

Let me start by giving the reasons for this writing. The reasons are complicated and somewhat surreal but they are honest and I know that whenever you read this, my son, you'll know that I have always loved you, even before I knew you.

First of all, no one ever knows what tomorrow will bring. There is always the possibility that tomorrow doesn't even come. Therefore, I want to make sure that you will never have to rely on a third party to tell you about your "daddy." If I never get the chance to share my past with you, I want you to know the truth.

Secondly, you'll get a sincere reflection on life from my perpective. One in which I promise to share my faults and mistakes, as well as my triumphs and successes. I hope to share with you the hard lessons of life that I have learned. Not so you don't make mistakes, because you inevitably will and most likely they will be similar to mine, but so you understand that no matter what hardship you are enduring at the time, you are not alone. This I PROMISE YOU!

Lastly, I know this journal will not be complete until the day I die. But regardless of where I have been and where I will go from here, you need to know one thing: My life was completed when you were born. Everyday that I get to see you and every minute that I get to spend with you is a blessing.

Tomorrow, I'll begin the first part of my writing to you. It will be about my past up to the point of you. (It is long, complicated and somewhat intriguing, so it might take weeks to complete this section.) Once that part is completed, I will then write about the past two years of your life. And then I will, at the very least, write once a week about life in the present and reflections about it.

LBG, this is not a novel and it is not a public book or journal. It is something you will read when the time is right and decide what you want to do with it. Maybe nothing, maybe you give it to your kids, but the day this reaches you..... It's yours... It's my personal gift to you. I LOVE YOU!